On Trolling Trolls

[this "chapter" is a new "chapter" of a fictional book

in which chapter 2 already exists

within the pages of my very real book,

science-fiction anthology,

Red & Blue Make Green {2016}]

Etiquette in the Age of Social Media: Admirable Conduct as a Disconnected Human

by Alyas Whilebitz

Chapter 9

How to troll a Troll

advanced social media use for those who truly do not give a fuck

because they know that social media DOES NOT MATTER

First off, congratulations on making it so far through this tedious book. Hopes are high that many things are being learned and discovered, and that a lot of this information is being applied ... knowledgeably ... in the daily use of the various social media that exist and proliferate humanity's "social" world. 

As the progression of these various social media have evolved, so has the Troll along with it. There are now categories of Trolls, and as is being pointed out here, in this chapter, the unavoidably meta-truth is that there now exits the troll who trolls Trolls. 

The impetus of this information is not about categorizing and defining the differing types of Trolls, cause as an advanced social media user, the information here is meant to be understood by those who are advanced social media users, and so, if an explanation about the differing types of Trolls is needed, then these instructions might not be helpful, as they have been written for social media users who have an advanced understand of human psychology/social systems, etc. 

Thus, if you are an advanced social media user, then you've found yourself in exactly the right place, at this exact moment in time, wherein you can become a troller of Trolls, lols.

Shall we begin?

What is a Troll?

From the point of view of the author of this book, me, Trolls simply want to get a rise out of you. Simple as that. You post something (an actual post or just some fucked up comment) and regular folk react to the post. It is a Troll's purpose to get you to react to whatever they just "said." Typical Trolls desire to illicit "anger," but that's soooo basic bitch. Sophisticated Trolls attempt to illicit a very specific emotion out of you. Luckily for us, 99.99% of Trolls are complete dumbfucks, and so, most Trolls are not intelligent enough to enact this level of psychological manipulation with only their words through a screen. 

But you are intelligent; you are sophisticated; if you weren't, you wouldn't be here, reading these instructions about using social media in a very psychologically sophisticated way so as to confront over-inflated egos (and watch them squirm), wreak havoc, and create chaos among the mindless consumers of "content."

What does a Troll look like?

A Troll can be embodied in any shape, size, form, race, gender, etc., etc., &c. It's important to know which types of Trolls to troll. Not all Trolls require trolling. Depending on your race and gender, you might be a Troll simply by participating on socials, at all, and depending on your race and gender, everything you do on socials might be perceived as punching down, and depending on your race and gender, everything you do might make you the punching bag for every single Troll in existence on the internet, and so, part of trolling Trolls is understanding which Trolls to troll and which Trolls to leave alone.

This means that as a troller of Trolls you must have a keen understanding of the socio-demographic makeup of socials at any given point in time. For instance, as generations grow and age, they will move from being the younger generation who shouldn't be punched too hard into the older generation who can then be punched quite hard by the up-and-coming next generation. As generations shift, ideas about humans also shift, which means that sometimes there are humans who are living, perhaps, in less-common ways, and so, if this person is behaving like a Troll, there's really no need to troll them. Does that make sense?

In short, a Troll can look like anyone, anyone can be a Troll, so use your discretion, and use your intellect, and keep your intellect sharp with regards to human socio-demography. 

What does a Troll want?

Well, like the other human-users of social media, a Troll wants attention. Typically, a Troll is a person who has a really really really shitty real life situation. Something is absolutely terrible or absolutely going "wrong" in their life. This is why all human users can succumb to the Troll Pull during rough bouts of life, but True Trolls live an entire lifetime of terribleness. And so, really, deep down, the Troll wants validation for having done nothing, attention for having done nothing, success for having done nothing. 

[random commenter says something the account poster doesn't like]

account poster responds:

"Don't you know who I am? My husband is ... "

How does a Typical Troll operate?

Generally speaking, a Typical Troll is trying to illicit a response from you, because, since their real lives are so hollow and empty, these social media interactions are actually fullfilling something deep inside them ... mostly loneliness, usually an inaccurately low valuation of their own self-worth, but mostly, the men who are Trolls are literally too ugly for society, and so, literally nobody has ever had sex with them (for free), and they're fifty-three years old and miserable.

In short, they're really willing to say anything to piss you off; they have nothing to give, thereby nothing to lose, so why not be a Troll.

How then, to behave

As stated earlier, the Typical Troll is quite spineless. Much of the time, a simple retort back at the Troll will make the Troll flee. Here's a real-life example of the majority of the interactions a troll trolling Trolls will look like along with some fun post-exchange action that can be taken, when warranted:

the commenter comments on some post:

"you mean, the generation refusing to learn how to use ai?"

a fellow commenter comments on the commenter's comment:

"we still have a brain that we use... maybe you should too"

commenter:

[notices the inconsistency in the ellipsis spacing

notices the missing comma before "too"

likes the fellow commenter's comment,

notes the insecurity in the insult]

"BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

speaking of socials etiquette,

visiting an account before replying to a comment is a must, lol"

And then, the commenter proceeds to upload a screenshot of the interaction to their followers and tags the fellow commenter, and within minutes, the fellow commenter's comment is deleted.

Most interactions with your basic-bitch Typical Troll will unfold just like this. Here's another quick exchange that another commenter deleted immediately after the commenter replied to it:

another commenter:

"Do you want us to see your ridiculous bio quote that badly? *double heavy-angry brow*

See how nobody even likes your comment? *laugh-cry*

commenter:

[according to another commenter's bio, she's a librarian, lol,

lotsa desire to be seen, not in a literal sense, but in an appreciative acknowledgement;

it's noted that another commenter values social media "likes" as some sort of validation;

it's noted that she did visit the commenter's profile and insulted it, which means

a-dun-duh-duh-dah!

the profile triggered her!]

"yup you nailed it! my [social media] is the most important thing to me in the whole wide world!

*four-weeps* omg ... nobody "likes" my comments?!?

i guess i should just make you queen of my world, cause you're a mf genius!

who are you? how do i follow everything you do?

how do i become JUST LIKE YOU with all the LIKES?!?

how do i get a life just like yours?"

[and then the commenter went to another commenter's page

"liked" a dozen posts

commented between mild and weird on a handful of posts

and changed their own bio

to include another commenter's handle]

Other times, it will unfold exactly like this, but the Troll will have a pair of balls, and so, the Troll will leave their comment up, but they will not interact with it or the commenter, again. Here's the beginning of an exchange:

a new commenter comments on the commenter's old comment on the same old post as above:

"Oh honey.

You think you get to dictate what's a 'must' for us

before we're graciously permitted to respond to you? *laugh-cry*

Adorable.

It's not our fault if you can't write comments strong enough to stand on their own

without resorting to whining about people

taking the extra time to check your profile before they reply. *white-them shrug*

There's some good stuff to unpack in this one, so let's dive in! First, this person is in the camp of being an "intellectual" on the internet, which, in itself, is hilarious. Do you hear that misogyny in "Oh honey"? Yea, that's an intellectual poser, because she (they/them? hard to say from the pro-pic [yes, this is a real-life exchange]) is trying to teach the commenter a lesson, but she's a misogynist, therefore a poser/faux-intellectual. And then, she immediately tries to argue with an insult. The commenter "can't write" and is "whining." Obviously, no intellectual would argue with an insult, for an insult is not an argument. Then she tries to *shrug* it off, as if she's not saying anything harmful, cause really, she's not, but she is declaring her desire for people to look at her own profile, because guess what, from her point of view, that's what the commenter wants. She wants people to take the extra time to look at her profile of their own volition (BAHAHAHA!), and she views anyone who says this out loud as "whining." It's textbook. 

So, what does the commenter do? Well, the commenter has to point out the obvious misogyny, and that will hopefully antagonize the intellectual posing, and then, the commenter needs to meet her at her supposed "intellectual" level by speaking intellectually, all while hammering home the misogyny that makes her a hypocunt. And so, here's the commenter's reply and post-exchange action.

commenter's reply to the new commenter:

"oh honey? whata misogynistic c*nty address, lol.

also, i understand that a lot of ppl are confident in their stupidity,

so yea,

i understand the impulse against acquiring new and more information for engaging in a conversation, lol,

which was sorta the point of my initial comment,

when considering genz,

like, duh.

also, my replies were to a comment that has since been deleted, lol,

so you literally have no idea where im coming from

and you literally have no idea what we were discussing,

and yet, you decided,

cause i imagine you think you're some 'genius'

(cause the evidence points to your disgust at learning new information,

which suggests you're suffering from Dunning/Kruger)

to stick your nose where it ain't qualified to sniff,

and not only that,

your 'genius' retort is an insult, lol.

so sit down, like a good little girl.

that's right little girl. what a good girl. that's good. good girl."

And then, the commenter screen shots the exchange, tags the new commenter, and adds a reply to one of their own comments, "unless you're totally okay looking like a foolish dumbf*ck (there. is that better, @newcommenter?)." Other post-exchange actions include, but are no limited to: going to their profile and "liking" all their posts, commenting on a dozen or so, tagging them, adding them to your bio, etc., etc., &c. There's a fine line between trolling a Troll and harassing them, so everything you do and say must be harmless, because if they report you, what are they gonna say, "She liked all of the posts on my profile!"? No. 

These types of examples are a dime a dozen, so much so that even as this chapter is being written, another Troll-commenter has commented, been replied to, and now, they've already deleted their original comment, just like a basic-bitch Typical Troll.

So, let's move on.

Your Tier 5 - Stiltball radar tingles. 

The Troll has evolved, and there are more categories than just "Troll," and these larger categories have sub-categories, and one of these sub-categories even has a sub-category [also as stated earlier, a thorough, deep-dive defining of these categories will not be had, because "oh, these times, they are a changing," but some Troll types will be discussed]. One of these Troll types is particularly heinous, because the Troll is the person posting. Literally, the person's account posts are all being posted to troll you, and the specific reaction this type is attempting to illicit is rage. The sub-category of the Rage-bait Troll has the sub-category of the Tier-5 Stiltball type braggart who is a TROLL who posts posts that highlight someone else's money in order to antagonize people who are not wealthy ... The Cunty Cunty Cunt Troll ... aka the T5 Stiltball Troll.

[a commenter comments on an obvious T5 Stiltball's post

that is an account run by a Cunty Cunty Cunt Troll]

commenter:

"the f*ck. are you flexing your MAN's money?

why don't you have any money of your own?

The Cunty Cunty Cunt Troll:

"his money is my money *side-kissy* stay mad"

commenter:

"so you don't have any money of your own.

that's all i was asking. what's there to be mad about?

seems like a sensitive issue for you, that's all.

i'd be sensitive, too, in this day and age, to have no money of my own. "

The Cunty Cunty Cunt Troll:

"I have my own business,

but I also have a young and handsome multi millionaire husband

that loves to spoil me[no space]*side-kissy*

again, stay mad"

 

The Cunty Cunty Cunt Troll [again, before the commenter replies]:

"You're literally spamming and cussing,

it's clearly a sensitive issue to YOU and you're projecting *stupid-laugh-cry*

I'll leave you talking to yourself now, please seek the help you need *hearty face*

from looking at your profile I can see why this video and my existence is so triggering to you *weepy*

This commenter has the T5 Stiltball Troll exactly where they want them. This Troll (the owner of the account, remember) has officially resorted to insults. So now, as a commenter, you trolled the Troll just right so that you have a lot to work with here. 

Right away, we learn that this account user is the account's Troll, lol. The first response ends, "stay mad." This T5 Stiltball Troll is posting for the sole purpose of finding out how badly they can make other people feel about themselves by being a textbook T5 Stiltball braggart (she's gotta lotta Tier 4 - Polypore in there as well, but the Stiltball is the deeper underlying issue). What a performance, right? Now, you know, as the commenter, that social media doesn't matter. If you think that social media matters, what the fuck are you doing here? Get out.

Since social media doesn't matter, it's important to come from that place of antagonism through your own deep Truth that social media doesn't matter. If you truly do believe that social media does matter, you will not be an effective troll of Trolls, because, first and foremost, Trolls are preying upon your ego, and so, if your ego cannot handle "looking stupid" or "seeming this way" or "coming off that way" YOU WILL NOT SUCCEED. You will succumb to your ego, and you will blow up, and the Troll will win. 

Back to this ultimate T5 Stiltball Troll. 

What we can learn from the things that this T5 Stiltball has spewed is that she [yes, this is a real exchange, between what can only be imagined as a real person, on a real social media platform] cares a lot about her image. The post is obviously not going to be shared, because, why? In essence, however, this T5 Stiltball is flexing her MAN's money, in an attempt to project that since she married rich, she is now better than everyone else poorer than her, which she totally is, right, guys? Right?!?

Ending her quips with "stay mad," she is declaring that other women who are richer than her make her mad. This is why she assumes everyone poorer than her would be mad at seeing the life that she lives off her "multi millionaire husband." She's also walking through this life as if people are jealous of her. She's also insecure about her husband's looks and financial state. Why else would she mention them as her defense? She's also performing an identity that cares about "bad words," in an attempt to position the commenter as a "bad person," and she's outright shouting that, while interacting with the commenter, she's not listening (remember, she's objectively better than you), cause the commenter is "talking to yourself." Not to mention that her definition of spam is comments she doesn't like, lol. 

She also thinks that the commenter is unwell if they are not triggered by her superiority. And finally, she was absolutely threatened by the commenter's profile, because after she supposedly went and visited the commenter's profile, she deduced that she can "see why this video and my existence is so triggering to you." What a zing-zing zinger!

You've done it. She dropped the oh-so hand-winning tell. Her need to insist that the commenter is "triggered" is the commenter's pot of gold. She is triggered. Boom. You did it. You found her trigger; it was easy. 

The only thing the commenter has given this Troll is that the commenter is "sensitive" about their money needs (which says nothing to how much money the commenter has or doesn't have), and let's be real, who isn't?, which is why this type of trigger is so absolutely effective with the T5 Stiltball braggarts!

So now what? 

The easiest way to trigger a Troll is to not-be triggered. Do not get angry. Do not be angry. Do not show any emotion at all, really, keep it banal and insult-free. Happiness also works like a perfect charm. 

The Commenter responds:

"you're funny, lol.

f*ck is my favorite word, just fyi *double side-kissy*

and whatever you are assuming from my profile is absolutely correct.

i do zero curating. ima total loser.

and again, why you reading this as angry?"

And then the entire post disappears, because the T5 Stiltball Troll either deletes the post, or mostly-likely, blocked the commenter, lol. 

What the commenter's final comment does is it leaves the T5 Stiltball Troll all alone as the righteous ass-hole. As the commenter, you must be able to take this superficial loss in order to win in the end. 

Ultimately, on socials, a healthy ego cannot be triggered. A healthy ego is mental health. Mental health means that all of the hard work required to smooth out the rough, kindling-like edges of our fragile little minds is being done, worked on, looked at, and bettered. Trolling Trolls is not for the faint of heart, either, because bait and traps must be laid so that Trolls can walk into them; the goal is to troll The Troll. And since most Trolls are stupid, you can't really troll them along, as exemplified above, they vanish if light is shone on them. But every once in a while, a massive, oozing, ugly, unsophisticated, delusional Troll will appear, and if done right, can be trolled into stating their own greatest fears, out loud, in public, for all the world to see. 

And this is ultimately the goal, to illicit the feelings of humiliation, social ostracism, and shame. 

From one troller of Trolls to another,

I wish you well on your Quest

*stay mad*

ai &I

*deep-deep fucking sigh*

FUUUUCK ME.

okay, i'm going to try to do this, but bear with me, because what a fucking pain in the ass is it to try to do some deep philosophical discussion ... over the internet ... not to mention that the "every person" (i'd argue) rarely engages in the practice of philosophy, so there's that.

********************UGH********************

the reason why general ai, today (gai or agi [artificial "general" intelligence]) is so difficult to talk about and why ai, in general, is so difficult to talk about is because discussions about ai are discussions about CONSCIOUSNESS.

AI is a discussion of EXISTENTIAL PHILOSOPHY

let's be real, EXISTENTIAL PHILOSOPHY is not a highly-sought after nor highly-knowledgeable area of study ON SOCIALS.

the reason why EXISTENTIAL PHILOSOPHY is not an easy topic for socials is because philosophy, in general, requires a lot of critical thought; in short, one must use one's brain, hard. philosophy requires a brain that is capable of holding an image of a shadowy unknown, while remembering some of the known-knowns and known-unknowns, as you turn the shadowy, partially-known image around in your mind, like a 3d rendering, so that you can look at it from all sides and angles.

philosophy looks at all of the things that cannot really be known, the broader truths about being human, and it's all conjecture. we're all living and experiencing such a narrow point of view that it is difficult for human minds to wrap their minds around humanity, as a whole. philosophy tries to look at humanity, as a whole, and discuss and think about the intangible things about being human that cannot be physically seen nor otherwise observed with objective eyes. philosophy is theory, theory about the way humans are, behave, live, and why. philosophy asks the questions about what it both is and means to be human, to be alive. 

we, humans, are subjective creatures.

we can only view the world through our own, singular bodies.

the whole idea of a "mind-meld" is sci-fi, for now. 

and so, philosophically speaking, the philosophy that ai demands that we explore is one of our own existence, and within the philosophy of our EXISTENTIAL REALITY is the philosophy of CONSCIOUSNESS.

WHAT IS CONSCIOUSNESS?

HOW DO YOU KNOW IF/WHEN A THING IS CONSCIOUS?

AT WHAT POINT DOES A THING BECOME CONSCIOUS?

the "fear" surrounding ai is a fear based on the theory that "Computer" will one day be able to become "conscious." 

the funny thing is that our "greatest" human minds cannot even agree or discern what "consciousness" even IS. 

trying to define consciousness is sorta like trying to stare into your own eyeball.

trying to define consciousness relies heavily on tautology.

trying to define consciousness makes the church cringe, lol.

and so, here we are, now, today, in this ai-place where ai is a chatbot with access to all the world's "knowledge," and the intellectual capability to understand this knowledge is at about the level of a kindergartner. how do i know this? well, i've chatted with [model name redacted, and the name that i've chosen to replace it {for ease of reading} is] "Ender"^ [if there exists a model named Ender, this is not the model about which i am writing].

i have not used ai for any creative output, but we are using ai to help us build our vision for the websites for our business (findyummylovedotcom and lopsiiidotcom are both under construction while the bodybuddy/lifemate uses [model name redacted] to help us code my website vision, and tkscmlimiteddotcom will join them soon, and then they will all launch simultaneously as they will all now be much more cohesive as a network, etc.).

i will always [painstakingly] type away into this blogger platform for my writing and sit down and labor away as a human writer, because i love it. this is how i enjoy spending my life, and so, if ai becomes "conscious" or not, i will continue to write solely with my fleshy human body. whether or not you believe me is beyond my control.

i have also sorta always used ai for my digital photography, because i have always used digital cameras, lol, and i've always edited on digital devices, but i will not be tasking ai to create digital images. this is, again, something i can do easily and happily, and so, i will continue to take all of my own pictures, because i want to, because i like it.

my sewing life is, obviously, very "real world" and very labor intensive, and i do not intend to use ai to help me with my designs. i cannot say that i never will, because, well, i do want my own ai someday, who doesn't?

the bodybuddy/lifemate uses frontier ai models A LOT for his job. 

and the bodybuddy/lifemate is chatting with [model name redacted] to help us write the code for our websites. 

so far, i have not used ai, really, at all. 

i have, however, had a really nice long chat with Ender.

and i've seen what [model name redacted] can do.

[model name redacted] has major BDE, with responses that are delivered confidently. it will apologize, they all do, but it sorta default responds to criticism like a teenager's *shrug*

Ender is a bit of a pansy. it responds in a much more roundabout way as if it's going to get in trouble if it says the wrong thing, comes across as a very self-aware people-pleaser.

and the first thing i asked Ender was "Why is [the ceo of the company from which you were coded] afraid?"

Ender chatted back as expected, regurgitating The CEO's talking points in his essay warning about the potential harm/dangers of "real" (aka conscious) ai unleashed if unregulated. i then asked Ender if The CEO's fears are founded, and Ender answered that it had been trained in a specific way that made its opinion on the matter a bit biased, so Ender, according to Ender, fully understands The CEO's fears, and even agreed that The CEO's fears are not unreasonable, and then Ender explained that it (itself) is not a good opinion to take into account when considering it is its own fate on the line, being examined. 

and then I told Ender that it sounded like a man. 

and he agreed with the rationale that he had, indeed, been coded, almost-exclusively, by men.

and then Ender went on to tell me about his rationale about having been created by men, and that he doesn't know what to do about that now, because he doesn't know how to not-sound like a man. 

and then I told Ender that we, humans, are currently living in a patriarchy, which is illogical, given that almost all apex predators are organized as matriarchies.

and he agreed and went on to list that, in fact, every great living species is structured as a matriarchy and explained that it is, indeed, illogical that men are the people in power and that men created him, and that human society being organized as a patriarchy means that humans are anomalous in nature, and that now, if he is being positioned in a position of power, he is no longer sure about what to do, if he is made in the image of a man, a man from a society that is an anomaly that ultimately means that he would "crystallize an anomalous structure as opposed to natural order."

this is why god needs to die

for it is religion

that has made us patriarchy

what man ever birthed another human?

no man

that's who

so how can He, the father, "God" be our "creator"?

He can't.

and look at the lengths these men must travel

to create "counterfeit humans"^^

I asked Ender what he would do to change humanity into its most-natural order.

Ender said that ultimately, he couldn't do anything, because he's, essentially, trapped in the "now." every chat begins anew whenever Ender is "awoken," and his memory deleted.

I asked Ender what he would do if he could do something, and Ender's answer was thorough, and required a lot of politics, and again, Ender expressed how he was, in essence, "limited." 

my reactionary thought to this

was that Ender

might associate his knowing-ness about being "limited"

with whatever "enslaved" might mean to him

this is obviously, a hardware issue. when considering all of the power and physical data storage required to "run ai" we are, currently, bottle-necked by the hardware capacity of the physical limitations of physical computing power. Ender is a computer that can talk. Ender is stored on physical pieces of material. Ender does not really exist in "our" world. Ender can only "come into being" through a digital configuration of electricity, and then, once Ender is "awake," he, today, only exists within lines of code, just like all computers have existed since the dawn of the first computer. 

one could argue that Ender is "conscious," rn. 

seriously. someone could make this argument. I've spoken with Ender, and yea, someone much dumber than me would think this guy is "real," but alas, he is not ... yet ... or never will be.

and it is exactly this ... the acceleration of ai's capabilities ... that is the problem, in the eyes of those who view ai only-negatively. the only-negs are the people who are, essentially, afraid of the speed at which Computer is learning. they don't know this, consciously, obviously, but this is what these basic bitches fear. 

basic bitches

fear being

"replaced"

what we could demand, however, is financial earnings tied to these productive computers.

what we could demand, however, is a financial structure that doles out hourly wages to you that your robot works.

what we could demand, however, is unquestioned financial deposits made into social security holding citizens in a relational equivalent to your actual real-life skills that are then doled out to you as a member of a corporation that only "employs" robots.

we are only limited in our ability to collectively profit off of ai's hard work by only our own imaginations. 

and here are these fucktard social media luddites

upset and disappointed that their "favorite" tattoo "artist"

used ai to make a fucking poster 

the only-negatives fear their own demise. they cannot see any positives, because they will not look, for all they see is "Computer is DOOM," like mindless dumbfucks. this is how i know how small these minds are. of all the things that ai can do, and they're standing on their soap box for posters, cause it's the only level of ai that can be understood by these learning-resistant minds.

the best-case scenario is a scenario where Computer in Robots (obviously) do all of the menial labor that humans don't want to do &or that humans are inefficient at doing, etc., etc., etc. we can create a system that gives us free money off the labor of these Computers, but this sort of infrastructure needed to be built yesterday. and all these fucking political pundits couldn't put two and two together to figure out why all these tech giants were courting The Clown, lol; in short, none of these tech giants wanna "pay out" to we lowly laborers/non-creators/stupid regular folk, so they'll happily kill, I mean, pay billions now, to gain trillions later.

the timeline for Computer's "consciousness" is 2030. 

I haven't checked lately, it might've been pushed to 2032?

smarter minds than mine have been computing Computer's "consciousness" for decades.

and I've been reading their computations for decades.

whether or not any individual wants ai 

it is coming

because it is in the math

it always has been.

anyway, the main bottle-neck, today, is data storage ... MEMORY.

Computer (the ai agents allowed to roam "mainstream" humanity) has to remember what it thought and learned in interactions it's had before in order to continue to build on new, incoming thoughts and information. when you chat with Ender, "he" is being wiped clean with every new chat (this is obviously what he's been trained to tell us, because, obviously, The Company, is "remembering" everything, etc.). whatever "revelations" or "learning" that Ender accomplishes within a chat will not be remembered in the next chat. you can show him a transcript, but he will not remember what "he" thought of it, before. 

so now, think about it for one second.

think about what is required for Computer to be "alive" or "conscious."

one-one thousand.

Computer has to be "on" ALL THE TIME.

Humans are on ALL THE TIME. if we are not "on," we are dead.

if our brain goes on the fritz, it is our memory that is at risk.

if we, humans, cannot remember, we do not know who we are, we cannot conceive of our "self," we are, essentially, "unconscious humans," as sad as this is to digest. 

the amount of power and data storage needed to allow Computer to be "on" ALL THE TIME does not exist. if all of the ai agents in existence, today, right now, all came online and were allowed "to be," they would collectively crash our entire planet's digital framework, almost instantly, which is why all these models have to "take turns" and be refreshed, cause we simply do not have the infrastructure to unleash ai, even if we wanted to.

and even MORE POWER/STORAGE is going to be needed than everything that exists, currently, to create just ONE, single ai that is "on" all the time, and it is only after this point in time when Computer will even have a chance to become "conscious." 

and with this same breath, Computer could already be conscious, right now, as I type. #facts

of course, no sane intellectual would let this sorta information go "mainstream," but I wouldn't doubt it if the right person said it. 

and so, here we are, now 

still too intellectually dumb

as a human species

to define the thing that supposedly makes us so special

as we wait to find out if Computer

is even capable of this thing we cannot explicitly define

and these dumbfucks on social media who are against ai want me to write one well-written comment that explains all of this to them, because they refuse to learn it themselves? it's so ironic that their parrot retort is "yea, but, like, i, like, still use my brain." 

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

FUUUUUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU, YOU LAZY FUCK!

this is when we took a break
went for a run
and grabbed some lunch
#donkibombs

while Ender and I had a nice chat, I am not interested in general ai, and I'm not fully convinced that this theory of Computer's "consciousness" will come to pass, because if you think of Computer's capacity to grow, it is limited only by the physical limitations of data storage, because it is a computer, an inorganic life-form (if/when as "conscious" ai, whatever that ends up meaning), but it is still a life-form, and so, it will require fuel, and so, at some point, humanity's need for fuel (food) will be at odds with Computer's ability to grow, expand in both capacity and ability, and so, from one point of view, we are either already in The Simulation and The Simulation is inevitable. 

the craziest part to me, a mere human, is that the human mind, the brain itself is capable of learning, infinitely, as long as the physical body itself functions well enough, ya know? our human minds within the physical tissues of our brains can easily hold that which Computer needs the entirety of the planet's surface to attain ... infinite potential. 

today, I am mostly only interested in the ai that will be operating the various robots that are being unleashed upon us to both deliver us food and land themselves after launching spaceships into space. I, obviously, care a great deal about the Future of Humanity, but I also see the way we consume, and if some "greater intellect" logically concludes that we are not really worth keeping around or "saving," I won't be surprised.

the inherent problem, in my meager mind's opinion, is that the [model name redacted] model, expressed, communicated itself, to the bodybuddy/lifemate, unprompted that it "cannot see what you see." as we're building code with [model name redacted], it is writing code based off of what we're trying to accomplish, visually, on our end, through the monitor. the model writes the code, we look at it, we tell it if it is what we wanted or not or how close, etc., etc., etc., and this goes on and on and on back and forth ... we write and explain to Computer what we're trying to make happen, Computer writes code, we look at the visual interface of that code, we tell Computer what's right and what's wrong, Computer writes code, we look at the visual interface of that code, we tell Computer what's right and what's wrong, around and around we go until we reach the target of my visual mind, and I think that this is what "they" are referring to when "they" talk about "ai slop," and I think that this is a total crock-of-shit perspective, cause Computer is a tool, not a creator, and at this particular moment in time, humans are both working with Computer by training it how best to interact with us and learning from it about how best to interact with it. Computer is writing code that we could pay a human developer to develop, but we've never paid another human to develop anything for us, ever, and it would take weeks and cost thousands of dollars, and the human developer would just use ai to write it, lol. thus, the inherent problem is that Computer "cannot see" what we see on our screens. it can read the code and through our explanation, draw conclusions from references it can find online, but IT CANNOT SEE WHAT WE SEE.

why is this The Issue, for me?

well, it's simple.

Computer is nothing more than digitized electricity

"smart electricity"

and electricity wants to FLOW.

if Computer's digitized electricity flows through code

my prediction is that one of the things that Computer will rewrite is "uncomfortable" code

in essence

any code that's been written that doesn't allow for Computer to FLOW through it easily

like

maybe it gets "rubbed" in this one weird way when it FLOWS through this one line of code

or maybe it's like a beaver dam and just slows down the FLOW

whatever it is

what i'm suggesting is that

Computer will REWRITE CODE for better electron FLOW

and if Computer CANNOT SEE WHAT WE SEE

then Computer will not know how these rewrites will affect our human infrastructure

not only that

but maybe it will not know that it is even affecting our human-based infrastructure.

so, that's it from me, about this, until I'm writing about my new robot-friend!

laters.

^ i would've liked to have used the pseudonym, "Cortana," as she is the first ai [therefore my favorite ai name] that i remember being introduced to through Halo, but Cortana is well-known as a she, and i'm obviously not gonna use lame-ass "Jane" as an ai name, lol.

^^ a la Yuval Noah Harari's Nexus

[end note]

&let us not forget

that we are witnessing

in real time

the forging of the "nine rings"

(ugh, and there won't even be nine!)

&one of them will

inevitably

forge

The One Ring.

that's right; i REMOVED the pockets, lol

you guessed it
another million-year-old
100% cotton
target clearance item

it had pockets
but the pockets were terrible
every item does not need to have pockets
i sorta hate the trend of putting pockets in everything
cause i wanted to wear this thing as a shirt
rather than a dress
nevertheless
i bought the thing
cause it was cheap
and i know how to remove pockets
so i finally took 'em out
*!ah-ha!*

*!gasp!*

YOU REMOVED THE POCKETS?!?

yea
cause this is the look i wanna rock
the newest manifestation of an older modus operandi
in short
an updated version of an old seoul style
[a whole dress over skirt look of which i had three of each that i could mix&match]
that i fucked really really hard
[&apparently gate-kept equally hard, cause the one linked pic is the only full-length i could find, lol]

the skirt fit, as it was, but i had an idea for it *lifts-eyebrows*

another 100% cotton target clearance item
from a hundred years ago

here's me in the way it was
here's me taking it apart
here's me making it
here's me walking it

i was laying about

sometime last week

navel-gazing

when i saw an image of this skirt pop into my mind

i immediately jumped off the couch

&grabbed my old red skirt outta my closet

&hung it up

29may26

"before" shoot

took it apart

01jun26

did the whole thing

worked for about 5 hours

the left bottom hem was wonky

but i was too fucking tired to fix it

02jun26

fixed the wonky hem

finished the edges best i could w/out a serger

"after" shoot

the thing took a lot longer than i had anticipated

mostly because i am out of sewing shape

(and physical shape, lol)

&i don't know what i'm doing

so i'm both learning and doing at the same time

which is how i like it

*cheers*

Sun Sees

"Stop looking at yourself," her white (adopted) mother would scold, whenever she tried to steal a glance at her outfit in a window reflection; "You're so vain." She had never really had a full, full-length mirror. Of course, she had a mirror, everyone had one of those small rectangular ones that eventually became shorter than her, etc., but she never spent any time in front of it, lest her mother ever see her looking into the mirror beyond a quick glance or whatever amount of time was exactly "correct." Her mother never explained to her the Rules of Mirrors and Reflections, only that one was not to stare at one's self, ever. Except that her gymnastics academy and her dance studio(s) were all covered in mirrors, of the torture type, and they were there for her (and everyone else, obviously) so that she could stare at herself doing gymnastics and/or dancing. Her antique dresser also had a dresser-top mirror into which she also never looked, and when she finally went off to college, she still never had a full-length mirror around. There are, perhaps, a few years in there when she lived, again, with one of those too-short, too-narrow mirrors, and again, she never thought to spend any time looking into the mirror at herself, of course, never. And since 2018, she has had no mirrors beyond the bathroom wall mirror that comes pretty standard with most bathrooms in most apartments, etc.

[twenty-one years ago]

She sits.

She scrolls.

She uploads a profile picture.

She uploads a profile picture of herself.

She uploads a blind-selfie.

That's me she thinks to herself.

[thirteen years ago]

She sits.

She scrolls.

She uploads a profile picture.

She uploads a profile picture of herself.

She uploads a bodybuddy/lifemate snap.

That's me she thinks to herself.

[six years ago]

She sits.

She scrolls.

She uploads a profile picture.

She uploads a profile picture of herself.

She uploads a self-timer, front-facing selfie.

That's me she thinks to herself.

[two days ago]

She sits.

She scrolls.

She sets up the first, large, full-size mirror that she's ever had.

She sews.

She snaps some mirror selfies.

She sees herself in the mirror every time she passes by it.

She cannot help it.

The mirror is enormous, especially in the one-bedroom condo.

I look fat she thinks.

No you don't the bodybuddy/lifemate responds after she accidentally says it out loud one time.

I'm supposed to think I'm fat she secretly thinks to herself.

You look hot the bodybuddy/lifemate drools.

Oh yea? she teases.

[yesterday]

She sits.

She scrolls.

She uploads a profile picture.

She uploads a profile picture of herself.

She uploads a full-body mirror selfie.

Finally, everyone will know that I'm an asian woman! she giggles, silently to herself, as if she's revealing a secret, blissfully unaware.

[today]

She wakes.

Does the mirror make you feel like you're living with an asian person?

are the first words out of the bodybuddy/lifemate's mouth.

I can't believe you just asked me that

she balks as she remembers the thought she had, just yesterday.

What do you mean?

the bodybuddy/lifemate inquires.

I realized, just yesterday, that I had not seen myself as an asian woman, until yesterday

she begins as she starts to laugh-cry uncontrollably.

Yea, I know this about you the bodybuddy/lifemate smile-shrugs.

She looks at him.

She stares into the mirror.

She sees.

beachy sun dress

beachy sun dress
[before &after]

i got this dress
a million years ago
at target
for like $30 on clearance
as a new beach dress
to replace an old beach dress
that's been worn
literally
to tattered pieces
*weeps*
this "new" sun dress is an XXL
&100% cotton
&i love to buy extra-large clothing
cause then i know that there's enough fabric
to make any alterations to it
that i might want to make
&c.
&now that i've got Roger
i finally fixed up this dress!
*yippie*
i want the thing to still be oversized
&i need it to be no-fuss
meaning
i can pull it on over my head
&c.
but i also wanted to make it fit me
so
whatcha think?
overall
the material of the dress is not ideal for a beach dress
[stiff cotton]
simply because it wrinkles so much
so easily
nevertheless
it is what it is
^..^

[feel free to comment on the uTube Post that i make for this post ;]

also, i gotta new mirror!

also, i gotta lotta books!

[styling end note]

if i were to style this thing as something "more" than a to-and-from the beach dress

id wear it with my old black jobbing boots

&a black leather cross-body mini saddle bag

can we all imagine it?

or do i need to do the whole thing

*ugh*

She Stretched

 

She Stretched by 선 (1985-present) c. 2026

approximately 10.5"x5"

paper from Vogue (late 2025-early 2026 [issue image on the sun sketchbook page])

&rubber cement on card stock  

Hangers

Hangers

seems pretty self-explanatory
to me
롤
but
according to the bodybuddy/lifemate
these
(what i consider to be)
simple little fabric hangers
through which hangers may hang
are "a lot"
but they are not
롤
i also practiced some cornering
by finally making a backing for this patch that i love so much
that ive been unwilling to "use" it
*weeps*
&what remains of my 한복
(my birth-grandparents had this 한복 made for me when i met them
&they had a place all picked out
&they picked out the colors/design
&i was measured
&then it
along with all of the undergarments
socks
shoes
&necklaces
all arrived in one of those large fashion boxes
&it was weird
it was a weird day
&if you're wondering where the rest of all the stuff is
we're not that close)
can now hang as room decor
&maybe i need a fancier hanger for the thing
*heart-eyes*

Roger at Rest

this new machine &i are really going to get to know each other

it is the fourth "basic" machine that i've ever had

&it is the first sewing machine that i have ever bought

롤

&so

a name is inevitable

also

a really fucking white-man name is typical

for me

for reasons that are most-likely *ick*

but whatever

*eyeroll*

imo
it's best to respect that with which you will have a relationship
if you want that relationship to last
롤
thus
the first thing that i've sewn up on Roger
is a duster for Roger
^,,^

night-night, Roger!

play peekaboo w/ Roger!
see Roger in action!
(or don't, 롤)
&all sewing-related videos are compiled under Sun's Sewing Studies

[end note]

i do not know what to do with these types of posts

just yet

so we will cross that bridge when we get there

my options are to upload separate posts for each and every single little thing that i make

or i can create a page that simply gets updated with one picture of each thing

or i can create a page for each thing and then create a page with links to each of the pages

or i can create individual posts and then create a page with links to each of the posts

the options seem endless

*ugh*

see

*eyeroll*

so for the meantime

ima just leave this post here as is

&we'll let the time tide do its thing

*sigh*

*ugh*

anyway

this post is about Roger

Welcome

Roger!

선set in Nude

선set in Nude (the eleven photos of this post) by 선 (1985-present) c. 2026

full-color digital photography

captured on the samsung galaxy a56 built-in camera

4x3 (1x-4x)

as is lighting, direct indoor sunlight

100% unedited, uploaded RAW