For Thick-Skinned Readers [read: intelligent, lol, all others need-not read ;]

Elitist Intellectuals trapped in their Circle-Jerks:

"Come on, everyone.

Let's just change everything about the way that we think about things, en masse, all at once;

it's easy;

we just gotta do it, guys!"

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

i

a nearly-forty-year-old

medium-sized asian woman

was walking across a crosswalk

and crossed by a young

white-male

"rebel"

[textbook hair/posture]

wearing a shirt depicting an angry character with a text bubble that read

"GO FUCK YOURSELF!"

and i smiled at him

cause i was wearing my

"I USED TO GIVE A FUCK"

t-shirt

myself

[lol]

and he saw me see him

[lol]

and he looked embarrassed

[lol]

On Barcodes

not to

like

be that person

but like

if you're a manufacturer of some product

don't get creative or cute about the barcodes

*iroll*

when looking at the product

let's say

a box of crackers

from its front

the barcode should be on the bottom of the box on the right side

or on the right side of the box

near the bottom

and if you flip the box around so that you can see the back of the box

the barcode should be in the bottom left corner

same sorta thinking goes for bags of chips

canisters

cans

bottles

everything

because what manufacturers and "important" people do not know

is how anything

anything

actually operates

or "works"

on the ground

and so

if you think about it for one fucking minute

you'll realize that most of these items need to be scanned by a human person and/or machine

multiple times

by multiple people and machines

along the supply/delivery chain

and since it doesn't seem to matter where the barcode is placed

for machines along this chain

it'd be nice if the manufacturers thought about the people along this chain

cause most human people are right-handed

and when human people need to scan your product

put the barcode in a practical location on the packaging!

like fucking duh!

i mean

sure

go for it and be "creative"

but if/when i drop your product on the ground

cause i'm scanning five-hundred (500) items

and i can't easily find your product's barcode

so the box/canister/can gets dented

guess who doesn't give two fucks about it?

that's right

guess who will never tout some products

but will happily tout others

even products i don't use

that's right

but i guess

when considering the types of entities that couldn't care less about human laborers

this is all

"on brand"

[lol]

When

"having enough money" means that you're "rich"

Obviously

it's not a competition

but i'll always have more

therefore

better ideas

than you

cause like

you still peddling your one (read: first) idea?

*sad*

My long hair 

made it through the summer without being trimmed up

&so

we're about to find out how long it can actually grow/be

*eek*

The Xtian Mom Mantra

i mean

Hypocrisy

and Parents

The Xtian Parenting Hypocrisy

"Do as I say, not as I Do"

Is there really an emoji 

in the title of an official article released on the official White House dotgov site?

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

*amateur hour*

You wanna know how I know that your fiance actually has a tiny penis?

Look at the lengths [lol] to which you're going to make sure that we all believe he doesn't!

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Insecure much?

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!

And it's like you're setting yourselves up to have to "prove it"

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

It's becoming apparent that

japan refuses to admit their capturing and enslaving of korean women for sex

to both

refuse any blame/fault/wrongdoing

and to hide the fact that we don't actually know how many korean women were stolen as breeders

cause like

the people who think that japanese women are the "most beautiful" asians

have only seen the faces of japanese women who are deemed "beautiful"

i.e. women famed for their looks, working in entertainment, etc.

but really

the "beautiful" japanese women have faces more akin to korean faces

which means that the ones who are "beautiful" were most-likely born of korean women

who were enslaved for their beauty as breeders

cause like

there's a distinct look to japanese women

and their new pm embodies it perfectly

*shivers*

While standing in line at the Dick's burger joint in seattle one day

we overheard a guy chatting with two other guys

a group of three

and the Chatter guy said

verbatim

with all the pride
"Guys, I just got a new credit card with a 10K limit.

So, I've got ten-thousand dollars to spend.

Burgers are on me."

the other two guys just sorta nodded and looked at each other

i nearly laughed out loud

i nearly choked

i nearly spit in his face with my laughter

but i didn't

i held it in

and all we could hope was that the two other guys were as financially illiterate as the Chatter guy

cause like

if the other two were financially literate

the Chatter guy made a fucking fool of himself that day

cause he outted himself as financially illiterate

aka a poor person

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

i mean

*sad*

If you don't know anything about money

what it is

or how it works

don't fucking buy

a house 

If you don't know anything about money

what it is

or how it works

you probably think that "paying rent" is the same as "flushing money down the toilet"

which just makes me so fucking furious at whatever poor-loser came up with this idea

PAYING RENT IS LIKE PAYING RENT

life costs money

you have to live somewhere

when you pay rent

it is like paying to live where you live for the month that you live there

you are not "flushing money down the toilet"

you are paying someone to live in the house/apartment/condo in which you are living

if you needed to rent a car for the weekend

you are not "flushing money down the toilet"

you are fucking PAYING TO USE THE CAR FOR TWO DAYS!

like fucking duh!

if you need to live somewhere

you are not "flushing money down the toilet"

you are PAYING TO LIVE SOMEWHERE FOR A YEAR or longer or however long

and i know that people think that "buying a house" is an investment

but buying a house is like buying a fucking designer bag

or cryptocurrency

which is not an investment

IT IS NOT AN INVESTMENT TO BUY A HOUSE OR A BAG

UNLESS THAT HOUSE OR BAG PROVIDES YOU INCOME

I.E. YOU RENT OUT THE HOUSE OR THE BAG AND SOMEONE PAYS YOU REGULARLY

buying a house or a bag is buying an appreciating asset

yes, you can make money off a house or bag when you sell it

BUT ONLY IF IT APPRECIATES IN VALUE!

there's so much to know about money

and most people know so little

that i'm going to just stop here

lest i give myself a heartattack from the sheer rage i feel about the shitty

shitty

shitty fucking financial information floating around on socials

if you want to know more

you're gonna have to put on some big-girl pants

and fucking ask me point blank

*middle-finger up*

If you don't know anything about money

what it is 

or how it works

it's easy

don't fucking spend money you don't have!

and if you need more money

work more

this idea of work/life balance

is a poor person's idea

a poor person who showed up to some job until the day they died

like

fucking duh

you honestly think that you can work less and earn more?

what fucking planet did you grow up on?

a planet that doesn't use money?

bummer

cause you're here now

on earth

and like the chinese proverb so wisely puts it

"money cannot buy everything

but without it

you can't buy anything"

You cannot escape that which you have not accepted.

선 Sails

On 선 (Sun)

 

Mediocre Monday, no, wait, it's Thursday, so, Some Jokes At The Expense of 'White' People, lol

the "musicians" of your race have such terrible, mediocre-voices, that you don't even know what a good voice sounds like, and so, when you actually, finally get to hear a voice that is not-mediocre, you, obviously, think it's AI *laugh-cry*

&then, the white-voices that you worship openly admit that they use AI! and you love it!

the "musicians" of your race are so mediocre that when regular folk say, "man, these songs really all sound the same," the notorious response from "musicians" of your race is that, "but like, there are only twelve notes to use"

meanwhile, others, Globeauxes are writing original hit after hit, and the reason why these hits are hits is because they're new sounds that other, competent (read: not-white) artists are able to compose, lol

it's so blatantly obvious that the queen of mediocre-blondes ripped off the aesthetic of JENNIE's "ZEN"

it's like she thought to herself, "what sorta white-aesthetic can I use so that I can wear headgear?" which ultimately means that her music has zero meaning, because she was able to overlay any aesthetic on top of her album. meanwhile, JENNIE not only digs deeply into her korean-ness, but also, her music has meaning, and the aesthetic is thoughtfully conceived of within the context of her message

but like, white people are notoriously ignorant and illiterate; if you don't know this, you must be a white person, lol, cause like if you don't know this, as a white person, then you haven't traveled outside of these United Colonies of Elitism, enough; probably because you're too poor, cause you eat all your money, lol. like seriously, if you're a poor white person living on Empire, like, you're an idiot.

&it's such a relief to know, now, for a fact, that the "success" that any white person has ever "found" is/was all fabricated, inflated, fake news; the alternative being that white people really are stupider than the rest of us *laugh-cry*

&just for the sake of "going there," if i were a japanese person living here in hawai'i, like, WHAT. THE. FUCK? *barf* how do you show your name around these parts? and like, the ones who are here, in positions of power, no less, are proud. *ugh* you're disgusting.

&the irony is that japanese people think it's a compliment ;/

On The 'Impostors' Who Kill Themselves

you work so hard

you've worked so hard

you work. so. hard.

you climb

and you climb

and you climb

and one day

finally

you Arrive

and you look around

from the 99 to the ONE

you've Arrived!

but within the ONE

you're part of the 99

cause there's an exclusivity

even within the ONE

cause most of the ONE

is/was born into the ONE

(or fucked their way into it, lol)

and so

Here you are now

back in the 99

being looked down upon

being lesser-than

cause your type comes and goes

and you certainly have zero chance of being up Here

if you don't look like Them

and really

you don't really belong up Here

with Them

among Them

cause you clawed your way up Here

like some 99'er 

like a laborer

thus

"you don't belong up Here

cause you weren't born up Here

with Us"

They say

[end note]

them bitches always be jealous

Rosé

like

duh

*laugh-cry*

&JENNIE

dah-ling

"ZEN" is one of the greatest recordings in the history of recordings

&i listen to it every single fucking day

&yes

i have one teensy-tiny issue with one teensy-tiny lyric:

"... I'ma keep it Z

Zen

Presence

Bless

Money can't buy sixth sense ..." 

when you sing "Presence" it sounds like "Pre-sents"

like you're Presenting ... JENNIE!

which is totally great

but presence is typically pronounced more like "pr-eh-zence"

"preh-zence"

so its confusing

for me

cause obviously

i am nobody

so i have zero knowledge of your intention(s)

nevertheless

i am who i am

EPHWHYELL | Vol 0.1

Read about "The Why" (recommended ;), and bookmark this post so that you can easily refer to it as you build with me over the next decade as we bring into reality that which, currently, only exists in our minds.

Landing [uploaded 10Oct25]

see first drafts here

PHILOSOPHICAL FOCUS | NOODIVERSITY &FREEDOM

i encountered this concept, noodiversity, for the first time a few weeks ago while reading an article in the September ARTFORM. thus, this is a new philosophical concept for me, and i would like to understand it more fully. 

NOODIVERSITY, according to and coined by Yuk Hui, is what he calls, "our way of understanding our relation to the environment, which varies from one locality to another and is embedded in language, customs, and so on." [p122] The concept context is accompanied by two other concepts: technodiversity and biodiversity.

&FREEDOM, feels pretty self-explanatory as a focus for thought-work during these oh-so-current times *sigh*

• the Hawai'i State Library system is emphasizing our "FREEDOM to READ" [05-11oct]

FIND | Fitness 

i am returning to yoga, for the general well-being of my body. since we do not want to shell out cash, at this time, for a gym or studio membership where i can dance, i have decided to return to yoga in order to find some more fitness. i have been running moderately, and i will also continue to do that.

October Focus :: Urdhva Mukha Svanasana &Keep on Running

stretch every day, anything between small and large stretches counts

small = Surya Namaskar a minimum of five

large = warmed up all the way to Urdhva Dhanurasana

• saw this NPC doing yoga --> Chaturanga Dandasana + Utthita Vasisthasana flow <-- while playing Borderlands 4

November Focus ::

December Focus ::

FIND | Imagery

• through phodeo [photography/videography] explore
• "noodiversity"
• our first meme *laugh-cry*
• an NPC practicing some yoga (lol)
• "&freedom"

YUMMY | Cook once a week

• you have a bit more energy these days, so why not help out the bodybuddy/lifemate and conceive of and cook one meal each week in October (we'll assess the situation each month)

YUMMY | [sex]

• do with it what you will
• not gonna share the specifics *wink wink*

YUMMY | Money

• presented by tkscm, limited

LOVE | Reading

• find access to journal articles that are locked
• [article link]
• [article link]
• read unlocked journal articles
• [article link]
• [article link]
• [article link]
• find more to read on Hui's concept of "noodiversity"
• finish Nexus: A Brief History of Information Networks From the Stone Age to AI by Yuval Noah Harari
• 05Oct25 [photos from the text slides are from this date ;]
• 19Oct25 [on this day, today]
• 23Oct25

LOVE | Writing 

• write at least one nonfiction piece with the Philosophical Focus in mind
• write at least one fiction piece with the Philosophical Focus in mind
• write one card/letter to someone and send it to them 
• complete two writing dates
• writing practitioners speed + timed writing on Philosophical Focus
• find prompts here if/when you are ready to do your writing date 
• read the writings from my writing date here
• writing practitioners speed + timed writing
• find prompts here if/when you are ready to do your writing date
• read the writing from my writing date here

LOVE | Drawing

• if you haven't figured out that Book Three is a graphic novel, well, now you know, so it'd be nice to start getting some imagery going for the thing, etc.
• i actually do not enjoy drawing all that much; it is my least-favorite apparatus(? whatever), but i do enjoy the end-result after i spend time drawing, etc.
• 09Oct25
• 16Oct25

&FINALLY | Do I need anything to accomplish these exercises?

• sketchbook ✔
• touchscreen stylus (i had one, but we cannot find it!)
• mead, spiral, college-ruled notebook ✔ 

&THEN | you use the surge of excitement and get started, right away! if you feel the pangs, don't push it off or "save it" ... use the momentum! go, go, go! 

\\//.

in the nightest of light, the lightest of night, the night light, the light of night, the lightest night, the nightest light

i wish that you would not speak to me

as if i should show some gratitude

Thinking Thoughts through the Turning Time Tide

the Employed and Others

there will come a time when being employed, having a JOB is a status symbol.

there will be a class with zero upward-mobility, and this is very Un-American.

 

 

the East-Asian (minus japan, cause they are the supremacists of asia) Francophile

Ms. Tiffany Poon, how do you reconcile a desire to create "equality" or "to bring that which is Elitist to the Masses" while, obviously, loving being an Elite (you obviously wish you were french), which, ultimately, outs you as an Elitist not the Equalizer, the role for which you so charitably claim to play.

and, like, JENNIE, paris fucking needs you a lot more than you will ever need it.

 

the people who rescue animals versus the people who adopt humans

it's hard to compare these two types of people

but the reverence that is shown for the first type is odd

 

public female-nudity as body-positive female-empowerment

I just like really do not understand how my willingness and/or lack thereof to publicly broadcast my, literal, naked self is empowerment. Like, how fucking stupid do you have to be, really, to think that going out there and "baring it all" is empowerment. The joke is that you're naked, and you love it. You love giving the world exactly what it wants to make you feel relevant. You're literally taking your clothes off so that the world will look at you. "Yea, but it's MY choice! Nobody is making ME do this!" Yea, exactly.

 

"you just gotta get her hooked on cock, preferably, your cock" 

"well, ya, that'd be ideal"

"yea, so you fuck her and make her orgasm, like, all the time"

"..."

"if you make her orgasm, it's like giving her drugs, you know? cause like, it releases pleasure chemicals, and so, if you keep banging her, and she like cums all the time when you bang her, then she'll like, literally get hooked on your dick"

"no way"

"yea, it's how it's done, man, and the best part is, is that most women are like waay too stupid to like know that they're just hooked on the 'O' and not like on you specifically, so she'll like want your cock, specifically, and then, like, you know, she doesn't realize that she's giving it away for free, cause, like, she wants you, but like, you'd obviously like buy her a car or whatever if that's what it took to pound her pussy, you know, and so, like, after you've been like fucking her, her idea [lol], you sorta start to feel like you're using her, so you just like start getting her stuff you know she'll like"

"ya, bitches be so stupid like that"

 

the women who accept themselves and the women who accept the standard

who knew that the internet was still so full of cunty cunt-women who are just like, the worst

who knew that the internet was still so full of cunty cunt-women who are just like, full-blown misogynists

who knew that the internet was still so full of cunty cunt-women who are just like, patriarchy patriots 

i really feel for these women, cause like, their lives must just be so horrifically terrible; they obviously need to spread the pain they feel all over anyone who comes near them or threatens their superiority, or the pain will crush them; it would crush anyone living like these types of women

 

  

the xtian public image

that runner, Sydney McLaughlin-Lavrone is not an xtian; she's performing xtianity as a means to "stay humble" and to "thank god" because he made her this way; all of her "success" is god's will *barf* she really thinks that she's so amazing that she needs to "thank god," cause if he made her this way, better than everyone else, then it's not on her, she doesn't actually need to have a humble psychology; it's a psychological "out" of doing the hard work of humility; not only is she discounting her own self in all of this, but also, no truly humble person, a stereotypical character trait of jesus subscribers, brings along their own crown with which to crown themselves at the event of the hegemony, i mean, olympiad; this faux-thankfulness to "god" for making you so great is just like, damn, listen to yourself, you fucking Elitist; you're gross; you're amazing, obviously, but gross *shivers*

 

posturing yourself as if you have more money than you do is fraud; you're a fake, and a liar

posing is for the weak and ineffectual

 

the blonde pop-star cycle

you're the IT girl

you have a decade-long run 

two-decades if you're lucky

you make a spectacle of yourself

nobody realizes that you never complain about the "burden of fame," cause you love it

all of it

the every-person thinks that everyone loves you

like they do

then the every-person learns that everyone boos you

and so

you PR stunt your new album

crickets

you PR stunt your engagement

crickets

you PR stunt The Halftime Show

crickets

you PR stunt a quickie-wedding

crickets

the boyfriend/fiance/friend does something crazy

crickets

someone, a stalker, does something crazy

crickets 

you do something fucking crazy

the woman who adopted you spread the opinion that you are lazy

and as you lay on your bed, tired, exhausted, on day two of your eight-shift vacation, you realize that you are internally beating yourself up and feeling lazy, and as you lay there, you remember how your own adopted mother, after hearing your physical therapist describe you as lazy, cause you were not recovering from the knee surgery to repair your torn patella tendon as fast as she thought you should be, while you were a senior in high school, in the running to be valedictorian, ballet dancer multiple nights a week at a ballet studio a thirty-minute drive from home and jazz dancer multiple nights a week at a jazz studio an hour away from home in the opposite direction of the ballet studio, while volunteering your time and attending night classes at a community college, cause you basically completed high school your junior year, which, by the way, was spent completing a year-long med-prep program for seniors, etc., spread the therapist's opinion that you were/are, in fact, lazy, and so, as you lay there, you realize that you have been working five days a week for two years and two months, non-stop, haven't missed a single shift, haven't called out sick, even did a multi-month stint of six-day weeks when your backup's father passed; you can take eight shifts away from your fucking job, and then you realize that your adopted mom is some fucking bitch, and that yea, you are not lazy, FUCK!

the "meltdown"

i'm chillin' on my second to last day of vacay, my first vacation, ever, cause i've never been at a job long enough to, like, "go on vacation," etc.; it's a long story, nevertheless, i have been mentally preparing myself for an emotional breakdown, cause like, i do not want to go back to my job, but i have to, you know? anyway, i'm feeling very blase, today, i'm menstruating, again, and i've never had a job where i go away for almost two weeks and return to the same job; it's a trip, and i do not want to spend my entire last day having a meltdown, but also, it feels inevitable, cause like, i know myself *ugh* regarding the PTO, itself, apparently, the only thing i really wanted to do was cook, lol, and yea, i did a lot of good mental work, so maybe i won't meltdown completely, and i honestly feel really grateful for the job that i have, cause, like i state in the opening, apparently, being employed, having a JOB is a privilege, not a right *sigh* 

 

the christian code-word for "Hate Speech"

evangelism

Think about it, this is what evangelicals do; they go around telling everyone that the way that you live is called "sin" and that if you do not believe in their god and do not accept jesus christ as your lord and savior from your "sin," you will go to HELL

how is this not hate speech?

it is

christian Evangelism is Hate Speech

but what they want is for you to hate yourself as much as they have been taught to hate themselves 

and/or to hate the way that people are

cause there is a "right" way to be 

it is a tool used to stoke fear and to create shame 

a power structure that entraps you in the frame that you are "bad" and thusly, need to be "saved" 

and oh look! we have your salvation! just hand over 20% of your income each sunday, and we've got you *wink wink*

don't be fooled

it is all just framing, not TRUTH

here's a different frame 

the pope is just another billionaire atop the world's first, oldest, largest, and greatest mid-level marketing scheme

what're you selling? SALVATION!

capitalism at its finest, monetization of the soul

and of course, the church thought of it first *wink wink* 

 

 

you think that the people who cherry-pick the bible won't cherry-pick EVERYTHING?

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

 

it seems like most people do not know how to search their own minds

REMEMBER, you gotta put stuff in there.

 

Maybe I'll run for Office

I am, obviously, very afraid of the very-real threat of death, but damn, AOC has really been doing her job lately 

Exercising In Sanity

*sigh* 

i really miss the days when zoella's following gravely outpacing her irl competence
was the most-annoying thing about influencers

*iroll*

we must REMEMBER that the "fight" is not about 

Us (one political party in a two-party system)

against Them (the other political party)

THE FIGHT IS ALWAYS ABOUT

US, WE THE MANY PEOPLE

AGAINST

THEM, THE ELITIST FEW IN POWER

Both sides are distracting us, We, The Many People, from this TRUTH

Both sides will grasp at any opportunity to obfuscate this TRUTH

Both sides' Ruling Elites want nothing more than to remain Elites, like duh

Don't take the bait

Refuse the distraction

Stay focused

Stay hydrated

Your Enemy is not your Right or Left Neighbor

Your Enemy is the Elites in Power who think of nothing but enriching themselves

In These United States of America, this Land of the Free, anyone of us, We, The Many People can rise; in fact, we're entitled to rise into The Few. Not everyone will make it, but nobody can stop you. Through the means of capitalism-as-usual, We, The Many People, have the right to become as rich as we please, as powerful as we please, and once we reach The Few, We have an obligation to REMEMBER that We are WE, The Many People.

Also in These United States of America, those of We who uphold and believe in the message, ideal, and hopeful future that our Constitution maps out for us, make a promise when we are either born into or succeed into The Few to REMEMBER The Many. 

It is the responsibility of The Few to REMEMBER The Many, to keep The Many in mind, for this is the promise of our democratic republic.

This is the promise of Our Constitution. 

This is America's Promise. 

And any member of The Few who only keeps The Few in mind is UN-AMERICAN.

Believe not a word.

None of this has anything to do with any ONE individual or ONE political party.

This is about US, WE, THE MANY PEOPLE, against THEM, THE FEW.

$B-cation B/V/Flogging

dear korean/americanadian (&generally, east-asian/americanadian) 'celebrity-famous' people,

I HATE YOU.

&you wouldn't MATTER without all of us, Korean-Adoptees.

this is probably a delicate situation, but i don't feel like "dealing" with it delicately, so i'ma just say it,

"korean/americanadians (yea, i'm lumping them in together, for this post) totally fucking suck, lol"

the reason why they suck (as a group, this is not an individual attack on any specific korean/americanadian) is mostly that they're weepy and oddly entitled.

right now, currently, in real time, there are korean/americanadians who are spewing shit about representation in, of all places, entertainment. 

BAHAHAHAHAHA!

there's like a thing that every white person knows about asians, maybe not korean/americanadians, specifically, but about asians, as representatives:

we're over-represented in intellectual fields

and this over-representation doesn't even include asians of the Brown variety

my point is that korean/americanadians see themselves as underrepresented in the categories of, like, "celebrity FAME," which is just like so gross *iroll*

the weepy stories are the other thing that fucking irks the shit outta me, like, it's so sad that someone made fun of the food of your immigrant family [inserted link 08Oct25 {BOOM! right. on. cue. *laugh-cry*}]

BAHAHAHAHAHA!

seriously? like you're from a family that was either rich enough, smart enough, or lucky enough to bring you and/or birth you to/on Empire (and yes, i am including canada in this, cause, let's be real, getting into canada makes traversing into the U.S. a stone's throw).  

so, like, shut the fuck up about your struggles.

the reason why you're even being "accepted by the whites" at this point and place in TIME is because of the hundreds of thousands of korean-adoptees who were shipped all over the white, white world. 

the korean/americanadians bicker and bitch about how they "didn't fit in" at school and such, but at least YOU FUCKING FIT IN IN YOUR OWN HOME!

like, fucking, duh.

the korean/americanadians are euphoric, these days, cause they're viewing their "FAME" as some barometer about acceptance and fitting in, as if they've done some hard work at being the "face of asian-ness" for white americans.

NO.

YOU ARE NOT THE FACES OF ASIAN-ACCEPTANCE IN WHITE AMERICA

KOREAN-ADOPTEES ARE THE FACE OF ASIAN-ACCEPTANCE IN THE WHITE WORLD

WE ARE THE ASIAN FACES THAT WERE THRUST UPON ALL-WHITE COMMUNITIES THE WHOLE WHITE WORLD OVER

WE ARE THE ONES WHO WERE THE ONLY ASIAN FACES IN THE WHITE COMMUNITIES ALL OVER THE WHITE WORLD

yea sure, some of you korean/americanadians were living in all-white communities, but you were segregated from the white people. you weren't the only asian person at a white happening. maybe you were, but you were there with your family, or you went back home to a family that looked just like you, where you fit in. 

korean-adoptees? yea, we were the ones who were dragged to all of these all-white events as the only not-white person. cause, even if we're with our families, we're still the only not-white people!

so go fuck yourself with your weak-ass suffering, your weak-ass suffering as a "representative" of asian-americanaidan-ness. go cry into the arms of the family that looks just like you, where you fit in as an asian-face against all of these white-faces.

we, korean-adoptees, are the reason why the white people of the world are so accepting of asian-faces, in general.

like, duh.

we, korean-adoptees, were brought into these white communities by fellow-whites.

we, korean-adoptees, were forced upon these white communities by fellow-whites.

we, korean-adoptees, were living inside of these white communities that are racist.

we, korean-adoptees, were sometimes abused inside of racist-white homes inside of racist-white communities.

we, korean-adoptees, sometimes suffered the most racist abuse inside our own racist-white homes.

we, korean-adoptees, had nowhere to fit in.

so, to, like, hear the weak-ass ways in which the korean/americanadians "suffered" and "suffer" from a lack of representation within the white entertainment industry, makes me quake with rage. 

and like, don't even get me started on the "adoption" movie that was made by a bunch of asian/americanadians who were NOT ADOPTED. like, what the fuck? are you fucking serious. that fucking movie was so fucking bad i never even mentioned it after i watched it. like, seriously? what. the. fuck. you have no business making movies about a topic about which you know absolutely nothing.

just like, just go fuck yourselves.

and like, YOU'RE WELCOME for laying down all of the ground work in all of these all-white communities, FOR DECADES, while you live your cushy little korean/americanadian life with your korean family. 

and like, THANK YOU, for reaping all of the rewards, while complaining and taking all the credit for your current "celebrity-FAME" success, lol. 

FUCK YOU, korean/americanadians. 

like, just listen to yourselves inside of the context of korean-adoptees in america, and the larger white-world, as a whole.

FUCK YOU.

Signed,

On behalf of all of the Korean-Adoptees

who are the Real Reason why korean/americanadian "famous" people
matter at all to white people

[a sorely-squandered] Scrumptious Sunless/Sunrise Stretch Scene

Scrumptious Sunless Stretch Scene

i've had a lot of Stretch Scenes over the past decade

Scrumptious Sunrise Stretch Scene

&this one is the best one by far
thus far
&after about a month in our newly setup condo
last night/this morning was the first night i thought to utilize this space for a stretch
*sigh*
the rug &mat used to be in our dark dark bedroom
&like
we had to drag both the rug &mat into this space
cause like
i'm so ephing old now that
for the past two years or so
i have no longer been willing to suffer through a bare-mat stretch
*ugh*
like
un-fucking-believable
like
what
the
fuck

re 케데헌

the girls of the girl-group speak accent-less english

the boys of the boy-group speak accented english

there are, obviously, a lot of messages wrapped up in this animated film, and depending on who you are, as the viewer, the messages will be different and hit differently

for me, this deliberate distinction between the boys and girls english-speaking being accented and accent-less, respectively, speaks volumes about the creator's point of view, and damn, mad-RESPECT

typically, i would leave my opinion open-ended here, but today, for this issue, i will outright state my interpretation of this subtle, yet absolutely significant decision: women work harder than men

yes, of course, there's the obviously vicious view where the boys sound like foreigners to native-english speaking ears, and the women sound "like us," etc., but the dig is subtler, too, as i'm suggesting; it's a blow to the idea that men are inherently "better" than women; it's a dig at the soul-crushing patriarchy of most asian countries; it's a dig at the obviousness, globally, that women are not only forced to be better than mediocre men to "win" their positions in this life, but also, that women do work harder to be better than all of the mediocre men around us, and we still get nothing, not even respect

my point is, watch out for this Maggie Kang; she's not only a genius, but also

she's a Power Player

[end note] 

i'm also totally loving the white-ass-nerd djs who are eating up the soundtrack for their trance sets *_*

An Introduction in ASL :)

&omg, the bodybuddy/lifemate already caught an error i made

*weeps*

when i say that i've only been speaking sign language for 1 year

i sign "speaking" incorrectly

ugh

is this why nobody learns new things?

cause like

you really just look/sound like a fucking idiot

when you're just starting out

*sighs*

on utoob

post-ad-day Po-ke Par-tay

poke person at our local Foodland :: "Are you going to work or are you pau work?"

me :: "We're done! Pau!" *big smile*

poke person :: "Oh, you work overnight?!"

me :: "Yea, on [redacted location]"

the bodybuddy/lifemate :: "We work at Safeway"

poke person :: "That Safeway has poke"

the bodybuddy/lifemate&i :: *look guilty*

poke person :: "But We have the best poke" *cackles*

the bodybuddy/lifemate&i :: *laugh* "Shhhh!"

just practicing for my passport photo

you're welcome

Sailor's Log | read it &weep!

there's

like

too much to write about

it's just

like

waaaay too fucking much

&so

i'm sorta opting for not-writing

cause i

quite honestly

cannot pick a topic

because

like

unless you've been living under a rock

then you know

that there's no time

no room

no space

to really do any sorta

deep

mental thought-work about anything that's going on 

"in the world"

&c.

but

it's been a long time

really

since i've written

anything

but captions

&c.

&so

i'm writing

right now

this here thing

the other thing is that i've been training a new person

at my jobplace

how to do my job

even though

i am not leaving my position

a "third person"

has been needed for some time

cause like

i gotta

eventually

take a vacation

&so

the bodybuddy/lifemate&i decided that we will

indeed

go on "vacation"

&so

we've been both

preparing our condo

through an enormous rearrange

that we accomplished two weekends ago

&preparing my jobplace

through the training of a new "third person"

who will

in the end

do a sorta two-department job

which will make her available to cover my job

along with my "second person"

when i am not available

or in a short-notice coverage sorta way

&c.

&so

it's tiresome to train new jobbers

*sigh*

thus

we

the bodybuddy/lifemate&i

are heading toward a mid-september vacation!

[our first vacation since we started these jobs in may 2023

&our first missed shifts since we got sick in july 2023]

also

all the kiddos i'm fortunate enough to know

are keeping me busy

with their awesomeness

*weeps*

there really hasn't seemed to be much to share

intellectually

like i said

cause every time i think

"oh, i'll give this societal issue on Empire some thought and post a post"

some other societal issue on Empire comes up

&so

what's the point of giving anything any deeper thought?

*weeps*

not to mention my recent acceptance about my own contributions to my own irrelevance

in the dawning shadow of gAI

not to mention the existential crisis of democracy as we know it

not to mention the existential crisis of humanity as we know it

not to mention the existential crisis of reality as we know it

not to mention the fact that i

literally

have not bought new jeans in

like

ten years

nor do i ever plan on buying new jeans ever again

*iroll* 

for the better part of a year

i'd been waking up feeling dreadful

&then

recently

we switched up my birth control

(cause i was feeling abnormally low, struggle-level low, and i had a hunch that i was on a concoction known to cause this in me, etc.)

rearranged our condo

(set it up, really, for the first time, cause like, when we moved in, it was such a whirlwind of starting my new management-level job [one i never wanted or even ever asked for, btw], blacking out one set of the two sets of glass doors [we are night-jobbers], and acquiring furniture, all on a wage-laborer's budget, without a car [sold our car in 2013 and never looked back], and so, in short, our condo was a clusterfuck)

&i got a new person at my jobplace who i am to train to help out in my department

*sigh*

about two &ahalf weeks into these changes

&i find myself lamenting to the bb/lm that

"now i have no idea what is helping with my mood, cause like, everything changed all at once, ugh"

about a week before all of this

i had a teeth-falling-out dream

for the first time

ever.

i am obviously aware of these types of dreams

but i

myself

had yet to have one

also

we pretty much nailed down why i applied to law school

it was never about attending law school

&i had figured this bit out way back in january

but i was too far along in the process

so i applied anyway

&was rejected

lol

never

the

less

the applying part

for reasons now known to us

was the thing i was supposed to do

nothing more

with regards to "law school"

because

it was this move that i made

this other angle that i opened up for us

that allowed us to see what we needed to see

to now adjust/tweak/maneuver 

&position ourselves

more accurately/astutely/advantageously

toward The Pursuit

in short

we've always known what we've wanted

from our life

&now

we know that we've taken steps in the right direction to get there

&better still

we're going to make it

*weeps*

you are perfect, SJ; PERFECT.

photo by SJ's 엄마 2025
(my edit ;)
full carousel on insta 
(&yes, this is the Girl Child with Locks of Gifts ;)

We in 2018

It must be wild to be a 'straight-white guy' who cannot be saved by a bunch of 'straight-white guys,' lol.

Obviously, Colbert's been known as "irrelevant" around our condo, since about 2018.

I honestly didn't even know that people still "cared" about what he has to say, but I guess, they don't, lol.

The only people who seem to care about Colbert are those who are at risk of experiencing his same fate, lol. 

Cause I haven't cared, like I said, since about 2018.

Good riddance!

Bubye, "Straight-White Guy"! 

"Oh, but she doesn't get the larger implications of all of this on free speech

and whatever else all of this means!"

they say.

To which you reply,

"There are other, better voices, that will rise from Colbert's ashes."

"No there won't! Can't you see what all of this means!

This attack on dissent? This dictatorial bribery of the Free Press?!"

they say.

To which you reply,

"Add it to the kindling for the Mob-like conflagration.

If these 'straight-white-guy Libtard-Comics' were unable to keep Ma-Ga out of the White House

with their 'pointed political commentary'

then this is sort of an evaluation of their own competence

in that

they are incompetent political commentators

and worse

they blame their own bosses of cowardice

when really

they're the cowards

so boldly 'taking off the gloves'

now?

when there's, literally, nothing left to lose?

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Pussy-Ass Cunt-Coward Colbert!

we shouldn't even be listening to these types of political 'comics'

these Elitist Elites disguising themselves as 'comedians'

those poor-old schmucks just like us regular people

lol

their 'take' has always been fully-self serving

like duh"

the rest of the world always gets to learn a lot from Empires as They fall.

Man in Summer

"Man In Spring"

yes, sbux

[always sbux, for it is where we met, after all, as cojobbers financially supporting ourselves while in school]

saturday sunrise stroll

poke parking

[not for us, we are carless pedestrians]

 

"Man in Winter"

thirsty thursday

whenever we finally make it back to 서울시
i will eat 냉면
specifically 피냉면 from "Maandoo Shack" (its official korean name is, quite literally, unknown to us, lol)
&the 물냉면 w/radish stems from Noodles Tree
i will eat 냉면
until i can no longer eat 냉면 anymore
&i will finally be happy
until then
this'll have to do
*sigh*